

"But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19
This is one of the things that God has been teaching me and showing
me over the last year. For a long time, I was working at a certain
job and getting a fairly good wage, and that was my security and
my income, and I depended on it to meet my needs. Then I left that
job, and now I have to learn to walk by faith, and believe that God
is able to meet my needs.
This has been an incredibly hard transition, and one that I am not
done with, but I am getting there. He showed me that there comes
a point when you need to acknowlege that everything that you have
comes from Him. Even your gifts and your talents and abilities come
from Him. But if we are depending on the gifts and abilities that
we have, and not on Him, then we are doing it in our own strength.
Here in America we are taught to be independant, and self-reliant,
but as a Christian, we need to lay down our self, and depend and
lean on God. Is our job our source, or is God our source? Is He
able to meet our needs or not? I am not saying that a job is a bad
thing. But it is not our source.
What is the definition of a believer? In the Amplified Bible, where
it has the word "believe" it has in parenthesis "trusts, clings to,
relies on". So are we "trusting in, clinging to, and relying on"
Him?
Part of this is a death experience... In which we put to death daily
anything that would take the place of God. We consecrate ourselves
to Him and die to ourself. We become less and less, and He becomes
more and more. Until it becomes ALL of HIM and NONE of US. For
He is not going to share His place in your heart with anything or
anyone.
As I have studied some of the great preachers and teachers of the
past... Those that God has used mightily, like John G. Lake, Smith
Wigglesworth, Reese Howells and many, many others... It seems that
each one of these men had to come to that place where they laid down
their own lives piece by piece, and died a death to themselves, and
allowed God to have first place and full reign in their lives. When
they came to that point and died to themself, then God was able to
move through them and use them for His glory.
But it is a conscious choice that we make, and it isn't something
that we do once and that is it. It is a continual thing, of consecration
and dedication to the Lord. And it is a process. Each one of us
has different areas that we need to lay down, and we all know what
they are. I want to live a life worthy of the Lord, so that when
I see him, he will tell me "well done, thou good and faithful servant."
I want to be a clean vessel, holy and sanctified and a vessel of
honor for the Glory to flow through. Because there is a time coming
when the Glory will flow. And it will not be just like a river as
some say... It will be like a tidal wave. amen???
